What do you want to be when you grow up?

I am going on 43 years old and I still don’t know what I want to do when I grow up.  I don’t feel like I have a “passion” for one thing over another. How sad is it to not have a passion?

I remember back in the day (those crazy 80′s) I dreamed of being a CSI before there was even a job for that.  Something in the forensics field has always been something I wanted to do.  I think I would get along better with dead people then live people lol. However, sadly I think that boat has sailed. 

Now I am looking into the university of Phoenix for their Information Technology/Web Design associates degree.  A lot of work and even more money (*sigh*).   Right now I love blog designing and this would take me to a more marketable field (I think).  I am kinda limited to the degree I go for in the fact that everything I do has to be done online since I am never in one place long enough to go to traditional classes.

Then I am thinking of other things that are on a smaller scale.  I have always loved animals.  What about Dog Obedience Trainer?  Lord knows my dogs could use some training.  And then my mom’s 5 psycho dogs could use some work too lol.  This is something I could do living in an RV and selling my services each place I settle.  I am not looking to get rich.  I am looking to supplement our income and give me some extra spending money is all. 

See the thing is I worry about what will happen once dh is gone.  Sure he is younger then me but the men in his family have a history of not getting out of their 60′s before they die.  On the other hand are my 2 grandma’s.  One lived to 92 and my other one is 97 and still going strong.  I expect to live for a long, long time.  What is my point?  Well I am getting to it….  My point is 20-30 years form now it is going to be even harder to live on a fixed income then it is now and I just don’t see myself being a Walmart Greeter trying to make ends meet (no offense to any greeters out there )

I live in an RV.  If something happened to dh tomorrow I would have NOTHING, except an RV that is.  No house, no furniture and barely any belongings.  And you know what?  It’s damn scary. I would get some income from insurance,  and whatever death benefits dh has but it wouldn’t be close to what we have coming in when dh is working.  I just feel I need to something sooner, rather then later.

Ha, now I just need some motivation.  Anyone have some to spare??