Would the real Susan please stand up?

Who am I really?  I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister and well, the list goes on….  I am shy (even online).  I think my life is charmed overall, even when I think someone or something is out to get me.  I can be paranoid and stress easily.  I have good days and bad days.  I can anger easily and lose my patience often.  I am only moderately comfortable in my own skin.

I can love and hate who I am all at the same time.  I get depressed often and am anxious way too much.  I rarely put myself “out there”.  I hate to be alone and to this day if i go shopping with one or both of my parents and they walk off somewhere in the store out of sight, I think they are going to leave me (WTH is up with that??).  I would rather beat myself up then congratulate myself.

I watch too much television and spend too much time on the computer.  I spend too much money.  I obsess and worry about the little things.  I avoid getting close to people as a result of being stabbed in the back way too many times by so-called “friends”.  I pick my cuticles until the bleed.  I compare myself to everybody.  I believe in fate, destiny and karma.  I know I will live to be at least 100 years old.